If you want to live and see tomorrow, they say there are some things you should never forget. Your first date, your first kiss, the day you got married etc. I’m usually pretty on top of things. There isn’t a lot that slips my mind. Well how much shit should I be in for forgetting 9 years of service to the most wonderful Goddess on the planet?

I’ve worked my tail off to get as far as I have gotten. Sometimes I still struggle with the things Goddess Annika wants me to do. Although I still end up doing these things anyway, I can always rest assured Goddess Annika has never led me down the wrong path. She has been extremely kind to me and had the patience of a saint. I am sure if the logistics were right and Goddess Annika had her way, the times we do butt heads with one another, it would be my head that repeatedly gets smacked against a desk or a wall! LOL.

My time before Goddess Annika was pretty messed up. When Goddess Annika realized just how ass-backward I was doing things, she didn’t kick me to the curb. She didn’t say to me that I wasn’t worth her time and effort. She didn’t say there wasn’t a place for me in her world. She didn’t say that I couldn’t do the things that she expects a slave to do. She accepted me for who I was and what I could do for her that would help make her life more complete. She gave me the opportunity to explore a world that nobody else would allow. The more we talked, the more we realized the things that we had in common. The more we realized our respective pasts weren’t so different except for the paths to get to where we are today. Our bond just grew and grew. I would defend her and our relationship to all ends of the earth to anyone who said what she was doing with/to me was wrong. That I was being too easily influenced and exploited. That a person like me has no business in the fetish world and that I couldn’t do much. It is far far from that.

Now sure, I admit my fair share of mistakes. I admit this bond that we share has taken a pretty good beating at times. I admit that I have spent more time in the doghouse than I have keeping her happy. But it is because of that bond, because of that familiarity, because of that connection, the mistakes I make affect both her and I more personally than they do if we didn’t give a shit about one another and that the relationship that we have was just purely business. She would have punished me severely long ago or just straight up kicked me to the curb. It would have been over. Deleted. Blocked. Forgotten. Three strikes you’re out. End of story. A cat has nine lives and I’ve seemed to find a million. Dont know how I do it.

This piece of reflection is not meant to be negative or to point out any of my faults. I have enough blogs on here that cover all of that. This piece is meant to share with all of you the things you can accomplish with a little maturity and a lot of hard work you can get to where you want to be. There are a ton of fakes on here. There are people who will exploit you for everything that you’re worth. Then there are those that are the real deal. It takes a little bit of research and a little bit of time to figure out who is who. As long as you’re upfront and honest in the beginning, then it really isn’t all that hard to figure out. I read a blog today and come to find out that another Domme who is engaged in financial domination is apparently being stalked and harassed by some loser. Fortunately this person has been caught and arrested. But this brings up the point that if you’re some loser who doesn’t tribute, or you’re down someone’s throat for boobs, ass, meeting in real life and you haven’t even been talking with one another for more than 30 seconds in your lifetime, or you’re some person with a “moral” issue, then you just need to step the fuck off already. All the fakers (submissive and domme) need to wake up and understand this message. Just because you’re jealous of someone’s success does not entitle you to ride on their coattails and make life difficult for them. You turn away all the people that makes this whole thing worth it and at the same time ruin it for yourselves! It doesn’t put you in any better shape.

Goddess Annika and I have brainstormed about a lot of different things. Most of those things should have happened YEARS ago. For reasons I have stated above and in past blogs. Fortunately 2011, has been a good year to both of us and those things are starting to happen now. Finally got myself covered in enough lube to start pulling my head out of my ass. 2012 is just around the corner and I can only see things getting better at this point. I very much am looking forward to what is in store for us. I wont lie, some of the things have me absolutely terrified and Goddess Annika is gonna have a lot more fun that I will, but that’s ok, I’m gonna do it anway.

3339 days and counting………….

If you had asked me if I ever thought Goddess Annika would have kept me around for so long. I would tell you that you were absolutely out of your mind. I remember when she was 18 and we were all hanging out in D9 at the time. I silently stalked her for months. I observed who she talked to and how she acted and how she sometimes addressed the slaves in open chat. She was damn strict and damn cruel. “Earning her stripes” as she would say. By the time my nuts finally dropped and I became a man instead of a boy, that time had passed and I missed out. I was attracted to it. That level of commandment, not taking any BS, and not playing games. As I’ve grown and learned more about living a 24/7 D/s lifestyle, not just findom. I am not sure how well I would have survived in that environment. We have grown and matured. Goddess Annika has always been fair but firm. When I try to push for more, she’s always reeled me back in to reality. Explaining to me that I am not ready and why I am not ready. She never had to do that. I am very fortunate to have such a caring owner and teacher.

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Goddess Annika:

Thank you for all that you have given me.
Thank you for all that you have taught me.
Thank you for being my Owner.
Thank you for being my Goddess.
Thank you for being my Mistress.
Thank you for being the Superior figure in my life.
Thank you for all the good times.
Thank you for all the wonderful times.
Thank you for correcting me when I needed it.
Thank you for correcting me when I didn’t.
Thank you for making me all I can be.
Thank you for not allowing me to get ahead of myself.
Thank you for allowing me to be part of your world.
Thank you for giving me a long term place in your life.
Thank you for for putting up with my ignorance and stupidity.
Thank you for you being you.